No cat is transgender.
How do I know?
They can all find boxes
to fit comfortably inside.
The first box
which does not fit
is the estimated gender.
To transgend is to leave this box,
and for some that is enough,
but the comfort of cardboard
calls us all.
So we look out
at the boxes the world reluctantly gives.
"If that box didn't fit you,
would you like the other box?"
And for some, again, this is enough,
but comfort is hard to find
in a well-worn box not built for you.
So some part of the world
offers a third box,
hastily labeled "them",
and again, some are content.
But a box labeled for the world
to name without understanding
may not fit all equally well.
The world, then,
can find no box for us,
so we make boxes of our own.
But a box can be used
not just to label, but to divide,
and so these boxes grow
tedious and constraining too.
A box for those who left
that constraint of default gender
for pain, not mere discomfort,
would do no harm were it not
invalidating all other reasons.
Some of us build boxes to appeal
to the broader world,
but a name is not acceptance,
and respectability is a fool's errand.
We accept the boxes we are handed,
or we build our own and dig moats around them.
I have been wandering
in search of a box for myself
for so long now,
and I'm so damn tired
and I would like
to curl up
and take a nap.
And if there is
no box for me,
then I must rest
on the cold,
hard
floor.